Life is crazy, the to-do list is never ending, and there’s always something more to add to it. As far as I know, there’s no getting around that, it’s just part of being an adult. Having a passion for something, and wanting to pursue it doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll get it done. There’s really only one way to become a novelist, and that’s to write novels. Whenever and wherever you can.
I’m not an advocate for writing every day. It does no good to compare yourself to someone else’s ideal, and then berate yourself for not living up to their standards. Find your balance, find what you can do and fit into your life, and do that.
In October, I started taking yoga. I’d been thinking about it for years, but always put it off as too expensive, too scary, as something I wasn’t fit enough to do. Knowing myself, practicing at home isn’t going to happen. I’ve tried. There’s always something I need to be doing while I’m at home. If I don’t sign up for a class, then it’s not going to happen. I’m too afraid of just showing up unexpected to a drop-in class. So, I signed up for a beginner series. Then I signed up for three more one after another.
I’ve only taken beginner classes so far, but I already feel stronger and more secure in my body-image. I haven’t changed at all, but my mindset has. And that’s given me a little inspiration as far as my writing is concerned. When starting out in yoga, you will not be able to get fully into all of the poses. Some of them are simply out of reach, and you may not ever really get there. Your body’s structure, might just not be set up to accomplish that.
And that’s fine.
My yoga instructor has said that yoga is a journey, and your yoga practice is the path of that journey. The ideal of the poses, is the goal. If you can’t fold that far forward in humble warrior, that’s fine. You may find that over time, with practice, you can fold further. If not, visualizing the goal and striving to achieve it, even if you’re not actually moving forward yet, brings it’s own strength.
To me, it sets up your mind to accept that you can.
You may not be able to yet, but you’re not ruling out the possibility. And that’s important.
It’s the same with writing. You may not be a best selling novelist, but don’t sell yourself short or set yourself up for failure by giving up that goal before you get started. You might fall over in walking tree pose, but there could be a day where you don’t. You might go a month without writing, but even if you only write once a month, eventually you will finish a draft. Then you’ll finish another draft, or twelve. You’ll find your groove, what works for your life, your goals, and you’ll do that. Whether it measures up to some arbitrary standard or not, doesn’t matter. All that matters is that you what’s right for you, there’s strength in that.